How time flies...
In mystery it lies...
It has been a year since i got diagnosed with MS (Multiple sclerosis). And, it changed my life beyond what i could ever imagine.
It shattered all my dreams to infinite pieces that could never be put together ever again.
I felt that every moment was my last. Every single day, i prayed for a chance to reverse everything.
I was like:
*Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars...i could really use a wish right now..wish right now..wish right now...Yeah, I could use a dream or a genie or a wish..
To go back to a place much simpler than this*
*BoB ft. Haley williams: Airplanes*
I wished i never had to go through all of this. I felt trapped.
I tried so hard not to give up.
But, lately did i see what lessons it had been teaching me.
This whole episode of MS taught me how to see and feel the Beauty of the World that i was Trapped in.
I became a 'Spider girl' of sorts.. ;D
Meaning...I started to Live like a Spider who never feels Trapped in it's own web.
*I captured this picture of a spider hanging so peacefully in it's heavenly dew drop studded web last winter.*
Just like this spider, I'm hanging in there enjoying the droplets of strengthening family bonds and people's selflessness and compassion being added to my web. It is giving me a chance to re-discover humanity which i had lost all hopes in.
Yes, i did encounter a lot of negative humans too. But, after a while i just started to consider them as 'Evolutionary Mistakes' and learned to ignore them.
I am building my own beautiful web-world with every fragment of this new life i am getting to experience.
*This picture signifies my expanding web-world*
It taught me that there is much more to life than just a Successful career, Materialistic possessions and a Conventionally Beautiful Face/Body.
I've embraced Primitive hacks i.e., Love and Happiness for survival.
This ruthless progressive disease may throw new challenges in my way any second. And i am preparing to hang on...
For now, I am happy in my own world...waiting excitedly to experience new sparkling droplets of life.
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Love,
Siri.
Read these posts to know more about my health condition: Muliple sclerosis and me. The 'torture'..sorry..the 'symptom' fest. World MS day.
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*All pictures were captured by Me except for the last one which was captured by my husband*
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It shattered all my dreams to infinite pieces that could never be put together ever again.
I felt that every moment was my last. Every single day, i prayed for a chance to reverse everything.
I was like:
*Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars...i could really use a wish right now..wish right now..wish right now...Yeah, I could use a dream or a genie or a wish..
To go back to a place much simpler than this*
*BoB ft. Haley williams: Airplanes*
I wished i never had to go through all of this. I felt trapped.
I tried so hard not to give up.
But, lately did i see what lessons it had been teaching me.
This whole episode of MS taught me how to see and feel the Beauty of the World that i was Trapped in.
I became a 'Spider girl' of sorts.. ;D
Meaning...I started to Live like a Spider who never feels Trapped in it's own web.
*I captured this picture of a spider hanging so peacefully in it's heavenly dew drop studded web last winter.*
Yes, i did encounter a lot of negative humans too. But, after a while i just started to consider them as 'Evolutionary Mistakes' and learned to ignore them.
I am building my own beautiful web-world with every fragment of this new life i am getting to experience.
*This picture signifies my expanding web-world*
It taught me that there is much more to life than just a Successful career, Materialistic possessions and a Conventionally Beautiful Face/Body.
I've embraced Primitive hacks i.e., Love and Happiness for survival.
This ruthless progressive disease may throw new challenges in my way any second. And i am preparing to hang on...
For now, I am happy in my own world...waiting excitedly to experience new sparkling droplets of life.
Love,
Siri.
Read these posts to know more about my health condition: Muliple sclerosis and me. The 'torture'..sorry..the 'symptom' fest. World MS day.
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*All pictures were captured by Me except for the last one which was captured by my husband*
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the spider web pic is beautiful
ReplyDeleteThank you jayanthi. :) that picture is very close to my heart.. <3
DeleteSiri , à big hug xoxo. You are a very strong girl , just keep going :* God bless you always
ReplyDeleteThank you nu...Love you <3 :)
Deletethis article should have been longer !
ReplyDeleteso well written
as chroniclly ill person myself , I found inspiration in what you wrote abt the spider not getting trapped in it's own web - will try and apply this philosophy in my life
you look cute in short hair - I had to cut my long hair too for practical reasons
btw. your photo is so beautiful
Thank you so much Aishwarya.. :) And i am really glad that you found the 'spider' philosophy inspiring. I'm really sorry to hear that you too are chronically ill :( If you don't mind..please share your story. And, I wish i could write it longer. It's just that i wanted to keep it short so that any of my fellow 'MS'ers or general readers will find it easy to read and digest.
DeleteVery inspiring spider web message👍
ReplyDeleteSiri ur really a brave & strong girl...keep going
Last but not least all pics are asusual beautifully captured
Love ur pic👧🏻
Thank you so much chitra :) I am really glad that you found the spider web message inspiring. <3
DeleteGood .. keep up the strength, confidence to achieve your goal, ignore the logs and move on... be a strong lady ..
ReplyDeleteI will.. vani jiji :)
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